I don’t know if I have felt this alone in a long time.
The hardest part about acting as a career is making acting your career. You need to eat, drink, bleed, shit, and cry acting. You must be an actor. Acting is not a part time job, it is not a full time job, you don’t act in the audition room and it certainly isn’t an occupation. It is a mind set. You must indulge yourself into the craft. It will never be easy, until it finally is. You have to be ready to drop anything and everything for it. Similar to being homeless you have to embrace the fact that you won’t work.. and then you might… I honestly don’t know where this path is taking me, but I bought the ticket, and I’m in for the ride. Theres no backing out now.
It is all about the opportunity, you can practice day in and day out, you can study, you can take classes but at the end of the day there is no corporate ladder to wake up to every morning and try and climb. If the auditions aren’t there then the work won’t be there. It doesn’t matter how great you are, if you’re not getting in on the right projects in front of the right people, you won’t book anything.
I promise I can do this, from this point forward it’s about convincing the rest of the world that I can…
Sometimes no matter how much you’ve accomplished you can’t help but feel like a total fucking failure…
Sometimes I wanna quit this all and become and accountant now.
But I’m no good at math and besides the dollar is down.
This past year has made me realize how alone we all really are.
oliveskinned asked: Are you and Max on a full tour? Because that would be bomb if y'all came to Oregon.
Nope, just playing a few shows. I’d love to go on tour though, always a possibility.